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後戻りは出来ない

That's because of Rosetti's poem, "Sudden Light".

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I wonder how that could even happen.
Aa~ I didn't feel like coloring Roger (=A=; And that's my first Roger, by the way so forgive his suckyness *fails*

I'm in a gloomy fan-mood. Because a song made me sad this morning, it's called "For Martha" by The Smashing Pumpkins. One part of the lyrics made me think of Mello's death (T_T; It's a bit not-respectful because I know the song was meant for a person in particular *always research on the songs she likes* but I can't help it.

*sigh*
Yesterday I started my new healthy life and it consists of...walking nine kilometers at 5:00AM. It's a bit scary because it's very dark at that hour and there are a lot of bushes where someone could easily hide to rob anyone who passes by, but I'll rely in their lazyness V(=w=;)V Robbers must sleep well to succesfully commit their crimes ne?

Bwahahaha, I discovered the official web-page of my city/town. Here. The cows...THE COWS!!! (@A@;;; The photos are VERY old, tho. There aren't any of these ugly gray/red/green/buses, fortunately they changed them for new and prettier buses some years ago, so I never had to rid on them ;

A couple of days ago I was cleaning the garage, suddenly sister grabbed the hose and squirted my face. I said it was a waste of water, but I actually found it slightly funny~

I am OH~SO-NOT happy. The computer is back...and still doesn't work properly. The scanner doesn't work. I'm going to ask father to give me money to buy a Windows XP CD (It mysteriously vanished from home) and I will format this computer myself for once and for all!

I've always had the feeling the technician brother was seeing doesn't really know what he's doing, and nobody is going to do anything about it because I'm the only one affected (most things work okay, except scanner and guess who is the only one who uses it. Oh snap! It's me!)
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I want to start a healthy life. I'll exercise my body, I'll eat healthy food. I always say it, but I never can. I'm waking up at 1:30PM, I eat bad and for some reason mother is buying candies like there's no tomorrow and the temptation is incredibly huge to me, who is in love with candies of all kind, except for candy made fom goat's milk, but none of them are and they are all chanting "Eat us Hoku~ You need to eat us to gain happiness (^o^)~♪!". I'm gonna get fat, ugly and weak (TAT;;;
I won't sleep today (← don't ask! It makes sense to me not to sleep today in order to achieve a healthy life (=A=; ). Today is going to me the last unhealthy and filthy day of my life! I don't like exercise very much, tho...

Yesterday I was happy, nevertheless. We went to grand mother's house for father's day and one of the aunts I hardly ever see said I'm cute and petite like a doll (^o^) That made my day (I'm so shallow and vain, har-har~)
I also heard some interesting facts about my grand-grand-parents. They were from a place in Spain called "Aragon, Zaragoza" and came to my country running away from the Civil War or something like that. I'm not particularly interested in mexican nor spanish history, but it's interesting to know random things about your ancestors ne. Their parents were from England, but I wasn't paying much attention at all *fails* I just liked their last name; "Ferrer". It sounds soft and pretty~ Mine isn't like that at all ("Villarreal"). Bleh *random speech*

Bri, we need to talk about possible MeroNia doujinshi plots (-o-) *pokes*

思いの消えない場所まで…
優しい眼差しいの貴方に相対…

You are my Love, Makino Yui

Old doodle.
That song is from Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. I don't watch it, but sister has music from it (-o-)
During my time without a computer I have just re-read my doujinshis, TenKin and taken care of the house because I can't really do anything else.
I have remembered why TenKin is so great. Sara...! (ToT) She isn't the type of character that I like at all, but somehow I liked Sara. There is a song that makes me think of Setsuna and Sara. It says something like "I'll never find another girl like you ♪~ Sara! Oh Sara!". Setsuna x Sara is so sad.

Does anybody know if the circle "Mame Teishoku"(「まめ定食」） has a website?
I have a doujinshi anthology in which Mr. Mame (帯刀ま めさん[ I don't know how to read these kanjis. I've seen them both in occidental pages as "Obina" and as "Taitou" *sweatdrop* plus, I believe they can be read also as "Obigatana", "Obitachi", "Tatewaki" and others (=w=;;; I'm really behind with reading names *falls over* SO CONFUSING] ) made a collaboration page. And it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E. It was about the SPK, and her/his SPK members are beyond greatness! Her/his Gevanni is super handsome, Lidner and Lester are perfect and Near is oh-so-cute (TwT) I've tried googling it, but all I get is Yahoo auctions and printing companies that her/his work is being sold at. I've noticed, nevertheless that her/his colored work isn't as pretty as her inked one.

So this is a lesson for everyone, the cover of a doujinshi doesn't say that much about it's content.

I'd like to talk to all of you in MSN, but now I'm in a computer from school and they don't have MSN. Mou dame...

消えない思い…
When will I miss you, when will I miss you so far.
(MCR, Cemetery Drive)


I confess that's an old sketch I did back when I read "Dead soldiers with unmarked graves" by Flamika-san (I think that's the title ;;;;) but since my stupid mechanical pencil has been broken by my lovely brother I can't do much. I want to do a Mello memorial picture. I really REALLY want to.

I noted Mippa onee-chan with my ideas for doujinshi. I hope she says they're okay so I can move on with it C= (-。- ) ﾌｩｰ
Lately I've been feeling like drawing doujinshi. I want to draw DigiMon doujinshi, Elricest doujinshi, MattMello doujinshi but overall...MelloNear doujinshi (*>∇<*)ｴﾍﾍ~
Sadly I have no ideas *falls over* Except for the elricest, I can always use my old fanfics ;;;; This vacations have not been very productive on my behalf.
edit:/ muérete, h0ri.

I finally watched it

( Read more... )

Anyway, I might edit it later. I need to watch it again and think about it. I don't want to just complain about everything, I know there are good things too, but the bad things kind of overshadow them (ToT;;

( I think this is a big too big...it's a random oekaki )

Random Light-kun. My first Light made with opencanvas ; Based on listening to Butterflies and Hurricanes for too long. I think a lot of Light and Mello with that song (@@;;; I want to make a drawing of them, looking all competitive...well, Mello, Near and Light. Near doesn't need to compete to be the best.

So~ necrid tagged me with the next meme. He picked three icons and interests of mine and I have to talk a bit about them. If you comment on this post and want to participate, go ahead and ask me~ I'll choose three icons and interests of yours and you'll have to talk about them and stuff~ ♪
( Meme this way~ )
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Also, my computer is semi-dead now. I can't open MSN nor use internet for more than 10 minutes before I have to reboot everything ( ' - ' ;;;; And I'm sick. I highly dislike being sick (-_-; *crawls back into her hole of doom*

Mello:- Whichever, hurry up...

And that's how Matt ended up wearing that shirt. Now we need to figure out what happened to his hair...


VA-CA-TIONS~ ne ♪ ! (^O^)Vvv Finally

Yesterday a friend told me about the A-kon that took place recently. She took photos of Mero and Nia cosplayers who did it great and told me there were DesuNo doujinshis and besides, many people I admire from dA goes to the A-kon every year. I want to go (TwT)
Yesterday I asked my father for permission. It might sound extreme because it will be in more or less a year, but father is like that. And he still said I can't because it's too far away. 'orz
The first thing I did was google churchs in the Dallas area because I don't want to miss out church just because I'm somewhere else...and he believes that if I go far from where they can watch out for me, I'll get on drugs, I'll have sex and other stupid things I'm not interested in.
I'll be the best person EVER during this year and he won't be able to say no (-o-)
Right now I'm cooking and cleaning. Nobody says no to their little daughter who cooks for them and cleans the house and doesn't go out to parties and has good marks and reads the newspaper and doesn't have a boyfriend and is quiet and always helps and smiles and stuff! Right? RIGHT?!

(>O<)

ヾ(@°▽°@)ノ KYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I RECOVERED ALL OF MY FILEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!
YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESSSSSS!!!!111 I'M AS HAPPY AS SOMEONE CAN POSSIBLY BE!! I'M HAPPIER THAN YOUR MOTHER THE DAY SHE MARRIED YOUR FATHER AADASDASDADADF!! I'VE GOT M4D SK1LLZZZZ!!!! *explodes from happy*


I didn't like it much because Near's face looks too adult in my opinion (=o=; *self-stabs*


Today's only bad news is that my stupid modem is constantly failing at life AND so is my scanner ( ' - ') But That won't ruin my day, NOTHING will!
Thank you very much everyone who supported me with kind words or even offering help, your comments made me feel better in a devastating moment (TwT)V *sends love*

My computer was back before I thought it would.
And just in time for episode 34 (´A`* ;;) Gevanni~ ♪

Saddly I don't have japanese installed yet so I cannot read the 2ch thread, but I found interesting screenshots of Gevanni and...MATTOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ in the preview, though, and well, the lighting makes him look much better. Look behind the cut~

( Not so much quality, though )
There was also a panel in which Lester looking badly drawn, but I didn't feel like posting it. Also, you can check NTV's DesuNo page, in the story section they have already updated up to today's episode and even if you cannot read it you can see the new screenshots ne.

I'll edit as soon as I find my XP disc to make Japanese work (=w=;;
EDIT:\ Ningyou PartyNight~
( Ignore ;;;; )

I can't believe this is happening one week before school ends (=o=;;;

If anyone of you knows about computers, I'd be very happy to receive help As for now, I'll send mails to every friend of mine who knows about computers and post about it in every single computer support forum. orz

Here's what's going on:
I turn it on, everything goes allright until a menu shows up. It says that last time I turned it off I didn't follow the appropiate procedure and makes me pick a mode. I can choose between "Failure proof mode" (don't know it's actual english name, that's just a silly translation from spanish's "Modo a prueba de fallos"), "Failure proof mode with network access", "MSDOS mode" or "Normal mode". The problem is that no matter which one I choose, it never works. It suddenly turns off and reboots before anything happens and it repeats over and over and I never can do anything. I've tried to access the BIOS to format, but not even the BIOS work. And that's heart-breaking for a computer freak as I am *cries* If anyone has an idea of how to fix it, please tell me (T.T;

I'm so bored it's not even funny! I need something to do and I can't even draw because when I'm bored I run out of inspiration.
Does anyone know a nice Pchat? I'd run to the one Mishy and I used to go to, but she's not online and that Pchat wasn't really that great, except it had Mishy but if she's not around it isn't fun anymore. orz
Maa, now even going to a chatroom to RP seems tempting and that sucks due the bad quality of *that* chatroom RP, everyone is so OOC and swear and fight about stupid things *shakes off crazy ideas like that one*
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Lately in the most random (internet) places you could imagine I've been target of racist remarks (@A@; A person even called me a wetback and told me to go back to my -ugly word- ...when I've never been to the U.S.A wWw *cough* except once, but that was legal. But that is kind of funny because they say I'm probably 4'00'' (is that the right way to numerically say "four feet"? *only knows metric system ;;; *) high and I actually wish I was that small, I'd be much cuter and would look younger and dirty men wouldn't shout pervy stuff to me because I'd be mistaken for a little girl (*-*;;; I also want to be flat-chested! Asdfsdf *randomranodmboredbored*

( My thoughts on the movie. No spoilers )
In short, I might have liked it if Miss Swann's role hadn't been so overexposed and forced.

Now, onto the other subject, this whole matter of LJ banning communities and even personal LJ accounts is just crazy and feels like harassing!
Despite it's name, I'm pretty sure all lolita communities will remain fine as always, but my main fear revolves around the elricest one. If they mess with my elricest (=o=;;;; I'd be so mad and would kick stuff and push people and...-etcetera-.

I did that listening to MCR's "The Jetset life is gonna kill you". MCR brings angry Mello to my head (@A@;;

I had an exam and today I went to ask about my results. The teacher showed me the paper and they weren't really good...but then she said she would change them, told me not to tell anybody and patted me on the head (*o*;;; lucky~♪ I'm a dirty cheater~ buahahaha. I think that happens because I'm a good student, I'm generally polite and I'm very VERY quiet in class (actually, everywhere) unlike most noisy, obnoxious students.
I really don't feel like talking about my life, but them fandom is so calm I don't have anything else to post about (;-o-)

And just now I noticed I forgot to color Mello's beads. I feel stupid now orz

Emilie Simon is lolita!! Proof is here!!! Only a lolita could do such wonderful tasteful songs! A blouse would have been nice but, whatever~ *loves her even more*

Though, she doesn't sound too good there, it's fault of the video quality ( ' - ' ; I swear.

Pointless post (-o-; Sorry

*/random*

That, ladies and gentlemen (though, the only gentleman here is Tsuba-tan, since Necrid is gone and H0ri never counted as one ne ; ), is what Hoku does instead of studying for exams. The obnoxious part of drawing eroi pics is that whenever someone comes close I have to inmediatly minimize the window and pretend to be looking at cute webpages where nothing bad happens and happiness, heterosexuality and bunnies reign forever and ever (;-ω-)
I also made a Gevanni vs Mello stupid little comic, but I don't think I'll ever upload it as it sucks (>w<; I like Gevanni, but...Go~go Mello V v!

The song I was listening to last post made me very sad, so in contrast, today's song is happy~ nyappy~~ Everybody should listen to it (^^) Should I upload it? If anyone wants it I'll be happy to share!

...Just now, the phone rang and I answered and the person on the other side played random music and hanged up. I hate when people do phone pranks to me ( ' - ' ;;;; *punpun*

My Mello becomes self-destructive~


Two shots to the back of the head and we're all dead now.

I'm not sure which one looks better...this or this.

Anyway, about my coloring methods...They suck. I need to find a different way to color pictures...
I found out I can do nicer lineart with Corel than with Photoshop or Opencanvas. However, Corel has like 73973495734979 different brushes and I don't know how the hell to use it. I need a tutorial and a better pencil. The current one looks grainy ( ' A ' ;

This song makes me very angsty.

Matt is not pleased

Neither am I (=w=;

My "Pwned Matt" icon has never been more ad hoc~ ♪

So...since Mishy loves them, it's dedicated to her.

I always wanted to draw that stupid joke (^▽^; I thought about it last year, during folkloric dance rehearsals, but I didn't have much time back then. And today I reminded it and finally drew it~ yoku dekimashitane☆

EDIT:\ Look, look look! (>O<;;
Mishymishy made MeroNia icons for us to use in dA (ToT) *so happy*

I forgot to clear the background lines from the globe with the "ぷ" onomatopoeia (^o^;;

Today the weather had a change. Now it's rainy and cold so I'm overflowing with happiness (＊^^＊) So I made a Mello & Near fanart, inspired in how badly I have to fight my umbrella, because I'm very thin and the wind threatens to drag me with it, Mary Poppins style (=w=;;;
Anyway, ( it is here, right behind the cut )

However, originally this post was intended to rant about how remakes ruin most songs I like.
Why...? Why on earth do they have to mutilate their own songs like that? Bosè was a good singer, but I think he's getting crazier every year. Aging crisis? Perhaps, I suspect.
But well. I was going to complain about that, so I went to look for examples in youtube and accidentally found this.

Ignore the video!!!! Minimize the window and just listen to the song. It's lovely (´▽｀＊） ♪
I'll even attempt to translate it!
( Try, try! )

I don't know what it exactly means, but I guess it's about love dissapointment.
Mou, I like it a lot anyway, I'm more in love with the tune than the lyrics. But I'm afraid that this song also has been re-made into an stupid duet. I wish Miguel Bosè was dead. It sounds very VERY wrong, but if he was dead his songs would remain untouched, except for some that other lame artists（If you've ever heard/considered that most spanish music sucks...YOU WERE RIGHT!) also used as a cover but won't ever be as good as the original ones. Though, I can't say I like all of his songs...but the ones I do I like very much.

Last but not least~ I got DoA "Do the A Side" album (^o^)/ I'm even happier *loves Boukenshatachi*